Watch Me!

I forgot about my essence, my soul, my brilliance.
I forgot about my power, my magic, my sorcery.
I forgot about my courage, my wildness, my boldness.
I forgot about the star in me.

I’ve denied my gifts, my talents, my voice.
I‘ve denied my needs, my wants, my desires.
I’ve denied my goals, my dreams, my path.
I’ve denied all that truly matters.

I no longer care about your opinions, your judgments, your critiques.
I no longer care about your plots, your agendas, your schemes.
I no longer care about your jealousy, your competition, your hypocrisy.
I no longer care for that is about you and fails to concern me.

I've reignited my essence, my soul, my brilliance.
I've reignited my power, my magic, my sorcery.
I've reignited my courage, my wildness, my boldness.
I've reignited the supernova that is me- explosively!

Watch me!

Written by TAM 9/2/10 @2:58pm

Why?

You love me, do you?
You want me, do you?
Is that your wife caressing you in your sleep?
Why lie?

You love the feel of me,
the thrill of me,
the freak of me,
you possess the skill to compartmentalize.
For real you, what's the point?
Dude, why lie?

You got to go home to keep the peace, so you leave me.
I got to shussh, so she won't hear me, 
"But Baby understand, you are dear to me."
Son, with such ease, you lie.

It’s about the kids, for real you?
You love me, do you?
Riiiight you're my guy!

Me stress you,
trip you,
ponder you!

Why?

TAM 7/15/10 @ 8:00pm

Coward

Who are you?
You're a coward to me!

Shadow living like your childhood handlers,
choking on their fears,
modeling their doctrines like designer bling.

Who are you?
You're a coward to me.

Constantly seeking acceptance,
praise,
validation,
adulation,
co-dependence’s underling.

Who are you?
You're a coward to me.

Blaming father, mother,
sister, brother
for your regress,
your mess,
the depreciated path you chose to step,
for your essence muddied with regret and middle age fret,
cause time has crept,
by...

Time to
stretch you,
reinvent you,
rebuild,
challenge,
start anew.

Good-bye Coward. 
Hello Ms. ummmm...

Who are you?

Written by TAM 7/2/10 9:34am

Now

Yesterday, yesterday, yesterday,
tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow

Sweet libation, help me escape my now, now, now.

Yesterday brings with it sadness, guilt, regret, shame.
Tomorrow promises absolution, vengeance, vindication, reign.

Sweet libation, help me escape my now, now, now.

The mind's trip fantastic..
Yesterday, tomorrow,
Yesterday, tomorrow,
Yesterday, tomorrow.

Pause..

Breathe,
inhale,
exhale,
be still,
acknowledge,
accept.

You only have now, now, now.

Written by TAM 7/2/10 9:14am

The Truth

The truth is lost in translation….
hidden in intrigue, masked with trickery, deaden with deceit.

The truth is lost in translation….
muddled with fear, resentment, anger, angst, anxiety.

The truth is lost in translation….
governed by religious confusion, illusions of grandeur, righteous deduction.

The truth is lost in translation….
in the name of self-preservation.



Written by: TAM 6/24/10 4:16pm

Demon

Demon,
you and I have danced,
since our introduction by Pops.

We've said cheers,
shed tears,
you've smothered fears,
allowed my defenses to drop.

Lately our dance has been regular,
like after 9 to 5,
each time we take a spin,
more of me dies.

You're holding me strong,
making my living wrong,
got me groovin' with you,
in the dark too long,
on this soul deading song.

Demon,
we're through,
take your 80 proof,
your intoxication moves,
I'm done with you.

No more celebratory occasions,
special circumstance,
time to soul dance,
with my light.

I got this now!
No more coward's way out!

I'm two-steppin,
one day,
one moment,
at a time.

TAM 5/5/10 3:54am

Your Lips!

Your lips,
silky,
tasty,
velvety.
GOT DAMN!

Your lips,
creamy,
luscious,
fragrant,
unexpected.
OH SHHHH!

Your lips,
tell lies,
and tales,
keep cover,
lover.

Your lips,
have seen their share,
with no care,
just wanton,
you're so common!

You lips,
grip Cyclopes with abandon,
non-descript fashion,
your secret mission,
could truly mean treason,
against your current correlation,
again it's based in,
what?

My little freak,
who's not so unique,
but a treat for the week,
who likes to hide,
rather than speak,
truth.

You! Yes! You!
Imposter!
Please retreat with your lips.

TAM 5/4/10 8:45pm

Open (Dedicated to MM)

You get me!
My contrasts,
my shapes,
my lights,
my shadows.

You get me!
My old school,
my new rules,
my LA,
my NY.

You get me!
My intellect,
my mission,
my drive,
my gift.

You got me!
Thinking whoa,
feeling love,
being peace.

You got me OPEN!
I love you.

TAM 4/30/10 11:41pm

With You

I became,
I soared,
I illuminated,
WITH YOU.

The sweetness of you infused my essence,
life with her twists and turns held no darkness,
just bloom and laughter in her silence.

I danced,
I sang,
I played,
WITH YOU.

Told the nights your name,
gave the days a smile and wink,
thanked the skies for us.

Gentleness was you,
warmth was me,
understanding our genius,
patience our muse,
perfection was us.

The voices,
they came with schizophrenic flair,
causing a fog to settle,
its mist chanting not to trust.

I panicked,
I forgot,
I left,
no longer am I..
WITH YOU.

Forgive me.

TAM 4/4/10 6:09pm (Revised 5/14/10 11:26am)

In the Wee Hours

In the wee hours,
my ego sleeps,
my heart awakens,
my body weary from the day's war of hide and seek,
slumbers in post traumatic agitation.

In the wee hours,
my heart illuminates the truth of I AM,
speaks the tongue of my father,
my eyes shine from its pristine knowledge,
my cheeks are wet with copius notes..
Love is who? I AM
Love is where? I AM
Love is what? I AM

In the wee hours,
I am again fortified,
armed,
at-the ready!
A new day is dawning.....

TAM 3/5/10 1:52am